feelings

there are to many of them i think.
there are feelings that make you want to tear your own heart out just to make it stop.
that one i've had to many times.
there are feelings that make you want to jump up and down! howl at the moon! eat icecream!
but you never notice those as much, there taken for granted.
there are some that make you just want to sleep,cry,laugh,curl up in a ball and stare at the wall but when you see one of your loved ones in pain.......you wish all you could do was take it away from them, even if you suffer for it.
so then why do you never try as hard to help yourself?

awhile ago one of my loved ones got hurt....emotionaly,i was very mad at the person who hurt them.
but then again when i was yonger i was hurt emotionaly quite often. but i still cant decide whether or not to hate them,
or still try to get a relationship going ( not like boyfriend girlfriend, more like just talking to them on almost a day to day thing)
and thats really got me down latly. trying to decide witch FEELING to go with.
should i go with the side that had there heart torn out more than once?
or should i go with the side that still loves that person deeply?

arnt we glad life has so many easy choices!

well i'm stiil not yours so,

have a wonderfull time with the ones you love, and never be to hard on yourself, it never helps anything..

i'll post again soon!
-shattercat