not knowing what to do

i have no dang clue as to what i want to do with my life. and it keeps creeping up on me at the worst times. i don't know what I'm going to go to collage for, the only thing I'm good at is reading fiction. i hope that going to school will help me make up my mind.
aw well i'm just feeling sorry for myself i'll let you all go back to your life's now

-shattercat

drowning toy ducks

so I've been not happy lately,so i took a really really long bath.
and the cat watched.....from the other side of the room.
and he would very very slowly start to come close until he was on the rim of the tub.
and i got out two ducks out of the toy bin,i had a idea.
so i took the ducks and but one by him on the ridge of the tub,and one bye me.
i knocked mine over in to the bath,he watched and then.......he did it to his.
and this kept going for like a hour and a half,and i was laughing my head off!
then.........he fell into my bath.
and scratched me in the process,but it so did not stop me laughing more at him.

so i will let you all get back to your life's now,

see you soon!
-shattercat

Valentine's and After

So i hope you all had a good valentine's day! if not then *hug*
personally i had a wonderful valentine's.
and i shadowed at the school I'm looking at so that was really fun.
i went to a valentine's day dance after school with my boyfriend as well.
it was the most fun I've had in a while (watching my bf dance mostly) but really cool!
and i learned how to dance (more so,i already new how to)
they played so many songs! including "hips don't lie" and "buttons"
which was fun,and it was the first time I've ever really slow danced. Eep!
but it turned out pretty ok! i missed my friend though, she was in new york. T_T

well i best be off! i shall hope to post soon!

-shattercat

feelings

there are to many of them i think.
there are feelings that make you want to tear your own heart out just to make it stop.
that one i've had to many times.
there are feelings that make you want to jump up and down! howl at the moon! eat icecream!
but you never notice those as much, there taken for granted.
there are some that make you just want to sleep,cry,laugh,curl up in a ball and stare at the wall but when you see one of your loved ones in pain.......you wish all you could do was take it away from them, even if you suffer for it.
so then why do you never try as hard to help yourself?

awhile ago one of my loved ones got hurt....emotionaly,i was very mad at the person who hurt them.
but then again when i was yonger i was hurt emotionaly quite often. but i still cant decide whether or not to hate them,
or still try to get a relationship going ( not like boyfriend girlfriend, more like just talking to them on almost a day to day thing)
and thats really got me down latly. trying to decide witch FEELING to go with.
should i go with the side that had there heart torn out more than once?
or should i go with the side that still loves that person deeply?

arnt we glad life has so many easy choices!

well i'm stiil not yours so,

have a wonderfull time with the ones you love, and never be to hard on yourself, it never helps anything..

i'll post again soon!
-shattercat

chucking spears and school

have you ever chucked a spear? its hard! more so when you have to grab it before it lands.
I mean its really fun but......yeah..so...yeah.
oh thats right! i was going to tell you that i might be going to school next year.
the women wrote back to my parents and said that
she liked my name(sage) and that I need to go shadow (but of course I already new that) ^_^
so hopefully next year i will have less free time.
and more school time..ish stuff going on.

so now i go,

remember to always aim your spear and for goddesses sake don't hit any one.

definitely not yours

shattercat.